can i.?!? :(

npa la mlm ni aq rsa bgtu...bgtu..bgtu mls n no mood nih.?!?
hmmm ntah la kn..dh lma r gk aq xpost cmni kn..huhu
aq rsa t'haru pown da..kwn lma aq since skola rndah..kta syg aq sgt2( no worries..she she(girl))
n my fren...class mate(the new class) rjin lak b'tgur spa dgn aq..
sblm2 ni aq da dgq cta psai dy...n da jgk aq dgq dpa kta dy nganjing aq
tp aq xksh...bior jew kt dy..jgn wt kptsn t'bru2..lau xbtoi t wt dosa ja..
tgk...dy chat aq ag....beknya dy dgn aq sjak kmi msuk klass nih(secret class)
lau aq tnya pa2 pown rjin gk dy jwb pa yg aq nk tau...t'haru aq..huhu
dlm hapy aq nih da rsa sdey..i don't know y..can smeone tell me.?!?
skitnya ati aq trasa...xpala aq hmba Allah yang lmah so aq mhon
mndpt ktbhan ati....hmmm awt aq nih..da kja pown aq jd mls n xsmgt nk wt
aq nk apa ag.?!? hnst aq dh dpt....aq rsa pa yg aq nk kbykannya aq dh dpt
apa ag yg wt aq jd cmni...ya Allah tlg la hambamu ini yga Allah....
aq xmau prsaan cmni...aq xmau rsa cmni....aq xmau sdey2 cmni
apa mslh aq sbnqnya ni..smpai kja pa pown xjd...aq sbnqnya nk kna wt kja sket ni
tp aq mls sgt nk wt...aq xtau nk wt gena..aq rsa cmni sbb aq hapy td ka.?!?
tp aq rsa xla hapy sgt...cma aq rsa ska ja aq mmpu gk wt kwn aq gelak..wlaupown
dy gelakkn aq.....aq k ja cm 2...hmm tp pa mslh aq skang ni.?!?
skang aq dk lyn lgu yg sma byk2 kli...no bounderies~~kries allen n inpossible~~shontell
da pa2 mksd ka lgu 2.?!? aq pown xtau...aq xphm dgn dri aq...aq xtau...aq xtau
aq mnaip ni pown sbb aq rsa cm nk luahkn prsaan..tp apa yg aq nk luahkn 2.?!?
can i cry.? can i hate dis feelin.? can i scream.? can i.? can i.? can i.?